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In the half-light Caleb looks like the shadow he's become. Hunched over the baggage he could be anybody, and in a way I guess he is. I took our bond for granted, and in my naivety I'd thought it unbreakable. But when that bus pulls away it won't only be broken, but shattered into fragments more numerous than the stars. I want to beg, plead, get down on my knees and tell him that his life here has meaning, that our love has meaning, but I know that face. It is the one he wears when his ears are closed and his mind has put up barriers to all new information. So no matter what I say it will only push him further away. So when I walk closer it is with a mask of contentment. I wish him well with the voice that came so naturally before his plan to do great things far away, it sounds like me but it isn't. I'm already in transition to become a person I never wanted to be. The bitterness is rising like bile into my mouth and when he's gone I'll have no reason to swallow it anymore.

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They left part of themselves behind in the rolling green fields. Pieces of their souls broke off like flaking paint and fluttered into the July air, coming to rest in different facets of the Irish landscape. So much fluttered away that by the time they got to their new home they felt insubstantial, as if the smallest problem would crush them entirely. Now they were facing a new life in a new land, with alien weather conditions and unfamiliar flora. They wished with all their hearts to be back in their stone cottage.

While the husband busied himself with the tasks of the soil, his wife ceased to eat. All she could think of was her mother, her father, her sisters and brothers, the church and her beloved country. As her depression deepened their children ran wild, underfed and under-supervised they stole down to the village store to bring back unpaid for goods...

General

Emigrating, exciting, adventure, future promise, optimism, journey, new people, new places, new culture, research, packing, selling possessions, giving things away, all your worldly possessions in one suitcase, goodbye to friends and family, tears, gut wrenching, regret, guilt, aeroplane, excitement renews, hope, living the dream, landing, immigration, paperwork, waiting, queues, tired children, jet lag, new roads, new traffic laws, new home, homesick, desolate, feel alien, culture shock, new friends, slowly acclimatize, adjust, a new normal, a new happiness, a new life.

By loki, November 26, 2011.